Tuesday, February 28, 2006

i'm not feeling well.. the running nose is killing me.. i'm feeling so damn tired.

and, i have yet to start on my stats revision.. but thankfully, it's a 2pm paper.. so i can relax a little and not stay up till 4am like what i've been doing the past few days.. as a result of that, i've got only 1 over hour of sleep everyday before my exams.. but of course, it's because i do my last minute revisions..

it's the last paper... finally! and time seems to pass extremely fast these two days.. like, suddenly, wednesday is here.. woots.. i just cant wait.. it's till the point, i dont feel like studying for my stats anymore..

econs, wasnt as tough as that woman made it seem to be.. if there was more time, i could have done a better job.. but i guess, it's passable..

cip. fcuk. i'm like, if i know how to do, i would have done it.. so i left early and went for lunch with mummy.. i came home, i slept like a pig for 5 hours..

ob today.. nice. i suffered from mind block.. like, i know i know! but i dont know what to write.. see la..

but i guess, i should be able to pass la.. just a pass will do.. and i promise, i'll work hard from next sem. on.. i really promise.

something to look forward to tomorrow.. my mani-pedi session! hees.. then it might be dinner with my mum... and come home sleep!!!

i'm gonna start my revision, now. (:

Monday, February 27, 2006

bah.... i'm so hating cip. i'm so gonna fail it lah!!! it's 1am, the test is at 9am. and i barely know anything about cip. i totally forgot everything i read through for the first common test. i know nuts about the two pbls that were done.. it's so dry, i so hate cip and that a*** who put cip into one of the course modules.. bca didnt suck that bad.

why the hell do i want to study about computers when the course i'm in is about freakin' banking and finance?!

and yet, i dont want to fail my module cos i dont wanna repeat.. but to think again, this paper worths 40%. i barely passed my common test.. my pbls grade probably suck. so, tell me how am i gonna pass this?? huh huh??

fuck cip.. i so fucking hate you.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

woah. at least i got to complete 3 chapters of econs.. not a big achievement.. but still, it's an achievement.. *SMILES* i'm gonna give myself a pat on my back.. *pats* LOL. i'm mad..

anyways.. i've somehow come up with a list of what i wanna do during the holidays.. hehs.. fast, but this shall be my motivation to study harder if i wanna enjoy my holidays to its fullest.. mmm~ i can really smell the 7.5 weeks break... hahaha. here's the list:

1. my long awaited nail extension! hehs.. been wanting to do this since this sem began.. but unfortunately, touch rugby stopped me from having beautiful nails.. or maybe, a luxurious mani-pedi session will be good too... i've been looking at Polished Divas.. it sounds really good with all that good reviews about it.. anyone wants to go? (:

2. shopping spree! i seriously need clothes for school. lol. but on second thoughts, i should clean up my wardrobe before i start on the shopping spree. because i seriously think my wardrobe is very, very cramped..

3. meet up with my girlies.. the last time i saw them, it was in december.. boo. unfortunately when they met up during the cny, i had to work. i must and will meet up with them for dinner soon!

4. chalet, chalet, chalet!

5. i wanna go to the zoo!! i know it's like, dumb. but it's been like soooo long since i last went to the zoo... i miss the smell there. i miss the smelly animals.. hahaha. and i miss the swing at the children's playground... it's been at least 10 years.. i dont even know if the playground is still there!

6. high-tea with mummy.. haha. she offered to go this friday when i told her paper ends at 11. then she'd take half day leave. but i have papers on monday thru wednesday.. so i said, next week! (:

7. movie marathon.. yup yups.. loads of movies i wanna catch.. Rumor Has It, Final Destination 3, The Pink Panther, Casanova, Big Momma's House 2.. and the list goes on..

8. and of course, go back to work.. i wanna earn back my moolahs to go shopping! i doubt my allowance and paycheck for feb is enough for me to spend this holidays.

that's all for now.. i've spent 40 minutes on this page.. of course, doing other things at the same time.. yups.. probably wont be blogging that often.. cos i'm trying to stay away from the net as much as i can..

miss me alright? haha. and wish me all the best.. good nights!

Monday, February 20, 2006

heys.. help me to do this.. that is, people who know me, reading this blog..
http://kevan.org/johari?name=vanc

this is the inversion of the johari window.. be honest alright.. (:
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=vanc

thanks.


bored bored.. i'm like only halfway through the FIRST chapter of econs.. blah. and i got distracted. see how lousy i am.. right. i should stop blogging, and continue in my revision.. (:

Sunday, February 19, 2006

the day was not spent wisely. i woke up, watched tv.. and went back to sleep again.. it feels like the holidays.. seriously, study break have never been fully utilised by me, not once.. and i think i could study better in a group.. like when people are studying, i'll study.. because i wont disturb them.. and i'll get bored.. then i'll start studying.. can try and invite me to study.. but i might be too lazy to get my butt out of the house anyway..

anyway. i seriously think i should get off my laptop and start studying now.. yes.. at ungodly hours.. but this is my peak hour.. so maybe i should start now, den go to the market with my grandma.. and sleep when i come back.. XD

till then, take care! (:

Saturday, February 18, 2006

maybe the quiet night would be responsible for this post...

i miss going to work.. or rather, i miss your presence.. at work, i would see you.. and occasionally, you'd say something to spite me.. then i'd stare back at you.. it's fun. i know where i stand now.. and i dont expect much.. maybe because you made it clear to me before, only after i asked.. so i should be contented that things are the way it is now..

i used to look forward to seeing you. maybe because when i see you, i feel at ease... i would be happy whenever i see you.. because you would always smile no matter what.. and i felt pampered because i was treated like a little girl..

nowadays, whenever i see you.. i see nothing but a cold look.. you look stern when you do not smile. and i like it when you smile.. and no longer do i get pampered like a little girl, like your little sis.. because no longer do you care as much.. maybe because your attention turned to that girl.. that girl who no one likes.. that girl, whom i didnt really like right from the beginning....

anyhow, it's your choice.. i cant force you.. as long as you're happy, as long as i get to see you smile.. because you look better when you smile...

but i seriously wonder.. what would happen if that day was really my last day at work.. or did you actually know that i was lying to you about my last day.. i really really wonder what would happen..

whatever it is now.. i dont long for you to be the one anymore.. if you are meant to be, you will be..


all i long for in this cold night is someone's embrace.. keep me warm.. keep all my insecurities at bay.. because i really feel tired.. tired from all that at work.. pressure from mummy to do well in the oncoming exams if not my job would be compromised...... assurance that things will go the way i'd like it to be.. though it might not be perfect.. afterall, i'm still a girl....

Nat King Cole - L-O-V-E

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

trumpet instrumental

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

i totally adore this song.. fell in love with it since the first time i watched The Parent Trap starring Lindsay Lohan back in 1999 i think..

talking about Lindsay Lohan, she has changed A WHOLE LOT, don't cha think so too? okay, people do change la.

anyway.. sidetrack a little. my cousin was singing to me PCD - Don't Cha that day.. but, in the chinese accent.. it was hella funny. if you asked me to sing it again for you, i cant.. i just cant imitate just like her.. but really, i had a good laugh.. (:


p.s.: i still need someone to motivate me to study...... (:

random post.

blah.

i gotta start studying. but i just cant seem to get my ass down and start on the most dreaded econs.

6 days to econs.
9 days to cip.
10 days to ob.
11 days to bstats and freedom!


someone motivate me, please.....

=(

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

happy belated v'day to all.. (: to those who celebrated, hoped you guys had fun.. those who did not, it's okay.. there's still many more valentine's day to come! lol.

come to think of it.. i've never really celebrated v'day before. i'm serious. for all the seventeen and half years in my life. not one proper v'day was celebrated though there were presents received, and given.. nevermind. like i said, there's still many more v'day to come..

i thought this year's valentine's day is gonna be a day i wont look forward to.. due to the fact that couples will be everywhere. with all the ladies proudly showing off that bouquet of roses in their arms.. but actually, i didnt feel anything. maybe because i was home almost the whole day. or because, valentine's day mean nothing to me.. i even asked my mummy two, three weeks ago.. asked her to be my valentine, date me.. because her poor daughter has no date. and she laughed... bad mummy.

and of course, her colleagues asked her if i had any date. and she proudly told them, i had none.. see la, what kind of mummy i got.. but at least she was nice.. she thought of buying me flowers last minute. but because when she got to the florist, they were left with the super expensive bouquets, she changed her mind.. well, at least she thought of me..

and oh. i went to the hairdresser's today. so when i left house with my little brother, i saw this person (i dont know if it was he/she).. sitting at my void deck with a big teddy and a bouquet of little bears.. it was darn cute lahs.. and when i got back, at about 5, he/she was still sitting there.. hmmm... alright, i shall not be so kpo..

anyway, let's all celebrate Total Defence Day!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i'm proud of my brother and my cousin! (: both of them did well in their o levels.. woohoo. way to go!

work today, fantastic! loads of laughter.. but i got really tired and started to ache all over by the time i attended to the second family.. really. the mother and son, almost wore me out.. that little boy is so active, i wished i didnt give him the soccer ball.. because he never stopped kicking the ball since.. but at least i got my comm.. *GRINS* so all that crap was worth it.

the second family. i almost wanted to slap that girl. 5 year old. super VAIN POT. and she'd sulk if she didnt get to take photos.. stamp her feet and all.. gosh. if she was my daughter, she wouldnt be doing all these.. because she'll be a good good girl.

and the last couple. brought me the most laughter. though only deposit was placed, but nonetheless, i still enjoyed myself..

and of course, i'd say work is picking up.. getting the hang of it.. but the bad thing is.. i'm gonna stop temporary.. because of the exams.. SIANS.. and that means by the time i come back from the 2 weeks off work, i would have lost the touch. darn! and it means RE-TRAINING! SUPER SIANS.......

sometimes i'd wonder, what goes through your mind when you give me that cold look that i've always hated.. am i really overdoing it by doing my job.. i understand i'm just a part-timer.. and you, working full-time.. but, you are doing well.. and it's rare that i get to do this good.. instead of encouraging me, you're making me feel like i shouldnt come to work and "steal" customers from you full-timers.. maybe you meant it as a joke, but i just cant seem to put it out of my mind.....

Saturday, February 11, 2006

i bought like 3 formal blouses today. two tops from topshop. and a pair of jeans..

and i'm tired. updates tmrw. good night.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

goodness gracious me. i cant believe what i just read... eeew.. you seriously have mastered the art of sarcasm from that sarcastic queen. and because of the tales that you spun, it has caused innocent people to get blasted for no fcking good reason. and u have just build a "NICE" reputation for yourself. no wonder not many enjoy talking to u.

sigh.. why should i waste my time talking bout someone not worth mentioning.. totally stink my blog. just dont step on my toes.. because i get really nasty with people i detest.

warehouse party on feb 11. i dont know if i should go or not. hmmm...

caught Match Point today with several other classmates. the movie, total crap. the time-line was moving on SO DARN FAST.. and for a moment, i thought the movie had romance, crime and horror all put into one. really, i dont recommend it. unless you have too much money to waste away, den go.. but all that laughter was good..

anyways.. yu le bai fen bai coming up soon.. gonna catch it before i go to bed.. good nights! (:

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

gosh! i just discovered THREE zits on my left cheek.. it's like so long since a break-out on my cheeks..

omg. i sound so bimbo-tic.. eee..

econs tutorial today, really du ri ru nian.. which literally means, living a day like a year.. or something close. really. it was HORRIBLE.. i just felt like killing myself there and then.

last bstats tutorial today.. no more wacky tutor to liven up our tuesdays = tutorials day..

and of course ob tutorial was as usual.. but, i actually took down notes.. little notes.. for the first time? come on people. go buy 4-D k. confirm strike. *GRINS*

this week seems like the last week of school already.. because next week, there are barely any tutorials to attend. CIP on monday, FIVE minute review, and i have to travel to and fro TWO hours.. i'm considering whether or not to attend. OB on tuesday.. so very tempted as well.. as for S&W on friday, i've made up my mind to skip. which actually means.. NO SCHOOL NEXT WEEK! =X

alrighteys.. that's not very good either. why? because it means that the final exams are nearing.. bless me. and wish me all the best alright.. but of course, wait till 23 feb, the eve of econs exams before you start praying for me.. thanks! (:

haha. okays.. off to bed already. good nights!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

fwahs... just finished ONE bstats tutorial.. and there's two supposed to be completed.. so i'm left with one more. but it's only 3 questions, and i'm getting sooooo lazy. and tired of course..

the weekend was rather good. work was okay as well.. other than i saw one super nasty customer i wished i could have slapped him and kicked him out.. like if you dont like to take photos, please, get out. dont waste my time just because of that ONE family shot that you want.. crazy bastard.

$20 spif (special performance incentive fund).. it was like a draw. ranging from $10 to $200. i was preparing myself for the worse, ie the $10 ang bao.. but i guess i'm not that unlucky yet.. hahs.

super long day tmrw.. gonna rest soon already. but maybe after completing my tutorial... good nights.. (:

Saturday, February 04, 2006

mms.. i was thinking about what i said in my previous post.. about my husband being the best ever.. then i was thinking.. would i ever deserve a super duper good husband?

because as i look deeper, i've never been a good girlfriend. like, i've always treated my partner for granted.. like, i'm always right and all that kinda crap you can find in bad girlfriends.. okay, i might not be that bad.. but still, i doubt i'm a good girlfriend.

but as i think about what might possibly turn out from a relationship if i ever start one with him. maybe he just wont be someone whom i would be with for long.. he is the kind of guy that i would like, but just not someone i can be with.. maybe he was right to have not started anything. yeps, and i kinda thank him for that now..

i doubt i'm ready for a relationship now. or in the next few months... or just.. this year.. yeps.. v'day spent alone.. but v'day dont mean that much actually.. of course, that isnt the point i'm trying to make.. but.. maybe mummy is right.. i should take my time and not rush into any relationships now.. i would use to rebutt her and tell her i wanna get married by 23.. but then again, it might not be good.. because i'm afraid if i ever do, it might be on impulse..

some math.. IF i get attached now.. and were to get married by 23.. that would be 6 years of dating.. then the 7 year itch, for the guy of course.. but then again. number of years mean nothing..

but if a good guy comes along now, why not? hahahaha.

okay, i think this entry is more crappy than the previous.. but it's just to write these down, then read it a year later and laugh lahs.. because by then, my mindset would be different already..

alrights.. i'm really going to bed already.. haha.. niteys (:

yums.. just had a few slices of pineapple and it's SUPER SWEEEET! *smiles*

i gave s&w a miss today.. find it a bit dumb to travel all the way to school just for that.. but i've got a reason too.. because i just dont feel well enough to exercise.. the blocked nose wont help me in anyway.. but the other reason was cos Cheaper by the Dozen was showing on Star Movies.. (:

so i went to see the doc for mc.. and of course medicine.. to stop that bloody blocked nose since before CNY..

quote from jo'an.. sometimes a girl just needs a boy to hold her hands.. hers went on to say, and i got yours.. but mine will continue, and i've got none.

lols. okay.. not that i desperately need someone to hold my hands.. but.. yeah, i think you people get the point. whatever lahs.. i'm just feeling so.. lost... so many "what-ifs".. bleh.. it's all over.. let's all look forward.. i'm gonna make myself believe that in future, my husband is gonna be the best ever. LOL

i suddenly crave for that cake i always eat at Starbucks.. and i feel like drinking the Ultimate from Coffee Bean or maybe my fav. Rhuma Frapp. from Starbucks.. mmms... okays, that's so not gonna make me shed those kilos in any way.. so i shall NOT think about those anymore.. and i just feel like going out to take a walk now.. or maybe, ride on a bike, go you che he.. which means like, going for a ride or smth.. or maybe, just sit at somewhere cooling and quiet.. or or... and the list goes on...

i aint going visiting with my darlings tmrw.. gotta work.. but maybe, i might want to go off early and meet them for dinner or something.. but then again, i think i shouldn't.. hmmms.. let's see if they're coming over on sunday or something.. i dont know. we shall see..

stupid. now i think my throat is starting to irritate me.. hope it wont get worse..

okay lahs. this is a SUPER random entry.. i'm gonna put my face mask and then off to bed already.. i'm a patient today. but with no nurse of course.. whatever. i'm crapping already..

NIGHTS! (:

Friday, February 03, 2006

i never liked jay.. for i dont know what the hell he's mumbling.. but.. these few days.. i've been listening to his songs lah.. and surprisingly, i find quite a number of his songs nice.. not just the music, but the lyrics behind it.. of course, i still cant quite decipher what he's singing without the lyrics.. but.. he's quite good.. hmmm...

and the other guy on my playlist is wang li hong... *SMILES* liked his songs since i-dont-know-when.. very very nice..

i'm like still stuck with that cold.. with like all that phlegm stuck inside.. i really want to see the doc.. and i really dont wanna attend s&w.. but.. i cant miss tmrw's lesson if i wanna skip next week.. and seriously, i'm in no condition to exercise..

mini celebration for sharmin in school today.. the cake was super sinful.. but it's damn nice.. chocolate cake.. rongde says it's very sweet.. but i didnt find it that sweet.. or maybe because it's choc.. but still, two thumbs up! *GRINS*

i feel like i've got alot of work left undone.. think i'm gonna start on those that deadlines are drawing close first.. den i'll do my tutorials.. yup. NOW. (:

Thursday, February 02, 2006

i finally did my nails together with may today. or rather yesterday.. i havent did any mani/pedi for like 2 months or smth.. I THINK. and seriously my nails suck. almost every nail broke lah! and it's freakin' short..

we were at hollywood secrets.. i kinda like that place.. it's like a one-stop makeover play.. with make-up, hairstyling and nail services.. imagine if i were to engage their services.. one whole day i'll be there doing my hair, make-up and nails.. and off i go to attend that so-called whatever function.. by the time i step out of that place, i'll feel so tired i just wanna go home and sleep. LOL.

whatever lah. i'm bullshiting. it's like 2am.. how'd you expect me to be serious when i'm so darn tired?

and oh.. we saw this bimbo-tic girl.. she was there fussing over her french mani.. seriously. she paid only 18bucks for that french mani and she expects this and that and that.. ugh.. so turn-off.. it was really funny when i heard about what she was fussing about from my manicurist..

anyhows, i'm sick. yes.. officially declared sick.. that stupid nose.. it's like what.. flu? totally blocked the whole darn day.. i can hardly breathe properly.. and that throat.. totally yucky feeling.. it's like, a bit sore lah.. eeww...

and today's ocom table topic.. wah piang ehs.. my mind totally shut off.. i was like.. repeating the same point over.. waiting for the 1min 30sec point and i would drag on a little........ then THANK YOU.

okays, many of you wont know what the heck i'm talking about.. so ya.. i'm going to bathe and sleep already.. yes, i have not bathe because i came home late and started doing my presentation stuff.. so yup, whatever.

lesson is at 4 tmrw.. because i'm skipping lecture. GOOD NIGHTS TO ALL!